Just in case you're wondering...

It has been a little wild around here.  More wild than what I thought Summer "Vacation" would be.
Recently, my older girls have returned from Girls' Camp, we are "Dog Sitting" a Boston Terrier for my little sister (and yes, cleaning up the front law after little dogs go out to use the bathroom is still new for us and I stepped in some "Milo" today while talking to a neighbor), and Eva came down with a good blister on her hand--confirming Hand/Foot/ and Mouth Virus (Coxsakie) that kept both Joe and I home from church today at various times; Eva, as fate would have it, woke from an afternoon nap and had a fever and then promptly threw up right before we served guests dinner, and it was my thirty-ninth birthday. 

Man, does that seem old!

It has been a bitter sweet few months for us.  Part of me has stayed away from Blogging about what has been happening in my life because then I would not have to acknowledge the pain of miscarriage, yearning, and waiting...for our will to be surrendered and swallowed up in His will and something miraculous (another pregnancy?) to happen.

I stayed up looking at and writing notes and thoughts about International Babies up for adoption.  (There are some really cute little Russian Boys available--although, the ones pictured online that were available for "immediate adoption--within seven to nine months" did have physical disabilities).  Joe refused to fall into the madness and look until 4:00 a.m. at them.  He is holding out hope that the Lord may have one of these little guys (or another little gal) reserved for us to have, naturally.

Since our Easter miscarriage, I was told I have a gene mutation (Leiden Factor V; said "5") and been unable to conceive again and unable to find an Endocrinologist who will see me and help me understand my Irregular Testosterone Panel and high SHBG levels. 

I was told by one nurse on Wednesday, who was reading my records, "Dr. ______ does not deal with Estrogen Replacement patients!"  Huh?  I've never had Estrogen replacement in my life and was recently told that I should avoid estrogen in the future to not aggravate the clotting disorder that was newly diagnosed.

It is sometimes hard to go to any store here in Utah.  Within minutes of going "Birthday Shopping" with my (last minute but I love him) husband last night, we entered Target and there was two brand new babies and a very pregnant woman getting out carts.  Everywhere, everywhere, at Walmart, are sweet little babies and parents and families!

I'm still working on getting the Preschool set up for the Fall.

I'm still hoping to get to those: Art Lessons, Sewing Lessons, Bike Riding Lessons, Laundry Sorted and Given Away, Garden planted (with discount plants we purchased and did not grow from seed indoors--even though we had the seed, Home "Summer" School started, Fall Soccer signed up for, Gluten Free Menus planned, and scheduled Recreation for the Summer.

I had a wonderful birthday surrounded by the ones I love the most, even if they ad a hard time giving me the thing I asked for--Happy Helpers.  Thank you, dear ones.  What is one your mind lately?  Any good plans this Summer?